MyMightyMonthDay 5
My thoughts are all over the place right now.
I’ve not just dealt with my own chronic conditions the past 2 years
Osteonecrosis
Osteoarthritis
Spondylolithesis
Factor V Leiden
But now I’m diagnosed with a hernia WTF
I have to go get all the details in a couple weeks from recent Ct Scan
Plus
My husband had a heart attack 21 days before Christmas
122 days before we start our Florida journey
And Im just feeling pissed off, let down,disappointment.
I get sick of getting road blocks at every turn.
It’s tiring and I’m just sick of it.
It’s not just a change for my husband
But a change and adjustment for me to
Now we have to live on our savings which is what we are to move on
Now in the unknown
Again
It Blows
First it was me now it’s him
Good God can’t I win the lottery or stumble across about 15k. ?!!
Life would be so much easier
Will he recover and do well
Will my body hold up to all the extra work and tasks I’m doing
Will our plans gapped
Am I just kidding myself
All I know is
I’m tired of the roadblocks
I mean is this living? Or am I just holding on!
I know this mood will pass but for now I fell let down and pissed off.
