The Beauty And Pain Of Autumn

Autumn (British English) or fall (American English) is one of the four temperate seasons. Autumn marks the transition from summer to winter, in September (Northern Hemisphere) or March (Southern Hemisphere), when the duration of daylight becomes noticeably shorter and the temperature cools down considerably.

Fall is a season for balancing light and dark, letting go, and accepting the impermanence of things.

My body seems to know that bad weather season is coming, with summer on the way out and fall on the way in the bone pain goes crazy from mild to intense to unbearable all in a 24/48 hrs time frame.

I was hoping to live in Florida by now.

But with one set back after another since December 2016 husbands heart attack and stents.

2017 my stress test, echo , Mri’s and umbilical hernia surgery I wonder will we ever get to Florida.

Seems like there is always something and I’m not talking small somethings, they are always big intense stressful something’s.

I miss my family , I am so tired also of the pain that will come daily from mid fall until mid spring. I am sick of pain, I’m not ready for it again.

It hurts the soul always being in pain. Day in and day out pain. It’s overwhelming sometimes. It’s depressing some days.

So I have my granddaughters bedroom a mess it’s loaded with boxes.

Donate

Keep

Purge

Why do we really keep papers,paystubs etc 7-10 years? It’s crazy. Hopefully my husband gets a move on before I do it haha.

What’s bothering me is that little movement causes painful stiffness and just overall poor mind body health. I like to move about. No I can’t hike like I used to. Maybe some day.

Big movements are good, like walking in the sunshine ,or a stroll in the park to sorting through a pile of books (as long as they aren’t too heavy.)  And the problem is that I just don’t have enough of these big movements to keep my joints happy.  I’m home a lot these days, the colder it gets the more I’m stuck in doors, meaning the more pain I have.

I can ride my recumbent bike and do some small chores staying useful without using up too many of my spoons.

Typing on the computer or reading or watching tv isn’t my thing especially when that’s all there will be to do.

So good luck during the changing of the seasons

At least it’s pretty.

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